"Cbf thinking of a quote"
It's sad to wave Kawasaki goodbye once more... but I'm glad to be able to see my mother again.
Over this trip though, I've spent most of my time with my younger half brother and being able to speak to him one on one more, I began remembering bits of my childhood. When I was young and growing up, from almost as far as I can remember, my step father always hated me. I could tell already from a young age that he treated my brother and I differently. Back then, I remember him being such a brat and my mother always siding with him. I guess growing up that way made me a bit more open to my feelings which I expressed through art.
People would often say that I was the kind and gentle older brother and that my brother was the brat. But now being in Japan, I've realized that we've almost completely become the opposite of what we once were. Now he's recognized as the mature and gentle person and here I am, the one who is quick to anger, the one who is always thinking so negatively of others. Since when did I become such a bad person? My brother even went as far to say that I was "hateful".
I'm now beginning to look at what I do now. I never wanted to be thought of as a bad person. But being in Japan with my brother made me realize that I might need to fix my attitude to life.
Anyway, that was just something that's been going on through my head. Sorry about such a personal journal. This isn't exactly something I'm comfortable telling my family.
That's all kiddos!